SEGi College..!!

my new life, friends and attitude begins here..!
hee..
im d new bash which is still crazy, ugly and still doing stupid things...
hahaha..
but, i reduce all my bad habbit and starting 2 love and think bout myself..!!
4 all dis while, i juz think bout other people around me..
and not thinking bout me..
hahaha....

i've change a lot i think..
hehe..
yaa, i've changed..!
hee..

thx 4 those who being my new frens and help me with my assignment..!!
hehehehe..
we'll do a lot more group discussion afterwards...!!
hahahaa....

still single...

hahaha..
i dun wanna get involve with love anymore...
hahaha..
im suck with it...
heee..

all i want now is faocus on my study and having my good time...
kinda fall inlove with "drawing'' i guess..
hahaha..
addicted 2 it...
heee..

i felt like im flying...!!

hehehe..
i felt like im flying all over the world..!!
hahahaha...
damn..!!
its not dat im taking any drugs, but i juz felt really happy 2day..!!
hahahahaha...

after wat i've done, i think its better 4 me 2 live dis way...
hahahaha..
alone, and always be alone..!!
hahahahaha...

why i still keep thinking and waiting for her..??!!

damn..!! i thought dat i've moved on..!!!
aaarrrrggghh..!!
why i juz cant forget bout her..??!!
its been like 1 month and 2 weeks...!!
damn..!!
i juz cant stop thining bout her everyday..!!!
mybe its bcoz of d picture dat i swore i'll neva take it out from my wallet..!!
damn..!!!!
its hurts a lot..!!

but i need 2 focus on my study no matter wat happen..!!!
i noe i can do it, but i juz need sum spport from family and frens..
why did i love her so much when she juz esily find sum1 else as my replacement...??
damn its hard 4 me 2 find a replacement 4 her...
aarrrrgghh...!!
why is it happening 2 me..??!!
aarrrghh..!!
i shuld let bygone be bygones..!!
its my lifetime principe...

damn, i need more courage 2 move on..!!
even i still love her..
its ok, she's happy now...
dats all i want 4 her....

the most precious day..!!!

today is my memorial day ever...!!
i had a very nice new frens..!!
hehehe..
even yg 2 org tu stay kt hostel, but dieorg kuat tido..!!
hahahahaha..!!
farith and raymond, dh2 ar 2 tdo..!!!
hahahaha..

owh ya, 2day is my induction day...
im having fun even im a lil bit nervous at first...
hehehe..
aku dh ckap, aku nie penyegan...
hahaha...

sumpah seronok weyh ary nie...
i have my time table already..
damn..!!
this first sem i'll be so bz...!
i have 5 subjects 4 my first sem..!!
yg len sume dapat 3 subjects je minimum..!!
aaaarrrggghh..!!

but its ok...
i wanna start my new life..
so, i have 2 focus on my stdy..!!

bash, i noe u can do it..!!
be cnfident and 4get all your past..!!!

atlast, im continuing my studies..!!

hahahahahaha..!!
after wat had happened,
i guess i've bored in relationship and have my guts 2 continue my studies...
hehehehe....
yes, im takig my first diploma which is DIPLOMA in PHOTOGRAPHY...
i'll be a royal photographer after i finished my studies...
yeay..!!
atlast, my dream comes true...!!
hehehee...

its not money dat im looking for....
im looking for satisfaction..!!
hehehe..
captured a moment of truth and lifetime...
its a valuable things 2 do...
hahahaha...

yup, i'll be the new bash which is a student..!!
hahahahah...

today..

today i called AKMA...
hee..
we tlked bout one hour...
damn it make me feel happy...
neva felt it before...
although with anyone..
btw, she asked me 2 come to her house 2nyte...
coz she baked me some chocolat chips...
which is no one knows dat i love chocolate chip ibncluding her...
hehehe...
so i guess, on my way back home after sending bear home,
i'll stop by to her house..
hehehe...
4 d first time dat girl ask me 2 come 2 her house...
hahahaha...
i guess, i got a chance 2 be with her...
hmm...
but im scared 2 fall inlove and have a relationship ryte now..
huhuh...
mybe its because of my previous relationship...
damn, i felt so guilty after wat had happened...
and i dun want it 2 be repeat again...
damn..!!! i suck in relationship..!!
hehehe...
btw, i'll try 2 be responsible 4 wat had happen..
i'll try 2 move on with my new life...
^_^

LOVE

wat is LOVE..??
hmm..
sum people said dat love is blind...
and sum people said dat love is undescriable...
is it true..??

hah..!!
act both are true..
but, d real love need sacrifice 4 d one he/she loved...
in love, there must be trust, care, give n take, and forgiveness...
if we manage to have all dat, dats mean we will have a long serious relationship....

these four things are d most important in love....
we should have all these four things so dat we dun have so much problem in our relation...
i've learned bout love after i deserve wat i've done...
there were so much people dat i've hurts..
maybe dats y i deserve this punishment....

so, 4 those who are inlove...
try 2 have all these 4 things...
dun be like me...
dun hurts other people feelings...

4 me, love is suck...
but when it come 2 d ryte one,
love is fuck..!!
it will always end up by hurting d one dat i love....
so, i dun wanna fall inlove again...
mybe i juz can be SINGLE all the way...
thx 4 those who gave me d love...
i really appreciate it...

alone all the way..??

i guess i'll be alone all the way...
hmmmmmm...
my family and i are breaking apart....
luckily im continuing my studies...
atleast i cant have my job after i get my DIPLOMA in PHOTORGRAPHY....
hahaha..
so, i'll be alone after everyone walked away from me....
hahaha...
its d best for me coz i dun have 2 think bout all the fcking problems dat always be solved by myself...

and akma..??
hmm..
she seems 2 be not interested in me..
so juz beat it...
both of us will still be friends yg "gila2"...
hahaha....

mawar...??
owh, both of us are not seeing each other after she been busy working..
kinda miss her laa....
but i still call her....
hehehe...

isha...??
owh, i've moved on...!!
even i still love her, but im happy for her...
i have 2 let go for wat is not mine....
mybe she found her lucky prince which is her new bf now...
^_^
tke cre girl...

me..??
being such an annoying person coz afraid 2 fall inlove again...
wont bother any of the girls dat interested in me....
coz i will make them walk away....
hahahaha..
being more crazy, pathethic, and sarcastic....
hahahahahahaha...

what i felt ryte now..??

hey guys,
its been a while im not writing...
its bcoz i've my new diary...
hahaha...
soryy....

i juz wanna tell u wat i felt ryte now....
actually, i dunnoe wat i felt...
but obviously i've been thinking a lot bout akma....
i dunnoe why...

hmmm....
firstly, im happy 2 see ISHA happy with her life now..
even its still hurts me 2 see her with sum1 else...
but i noe, her new bf will treat her well...
and i noe she can tke cre of herself well..

and AKMA, she drive me crazy...
everytime i look at her,
i saw myself...
her attitude are juz as same as mine....
our story, our interest, and our mind are mostly d same...
heee..
dats make me fall into her....

BUT, i dunnoe wether she's d one...
im afraid dat LOVE will make me be like my past time...
its hurts...
and im afraid dat i'll hurts her feeling as well...
hmmm...
i noe i shouldn't fall inlove again...
but, she makes me fall again...
i didn't realise it..
wat i felt ryte now is obviously LOVE..

i noe i shouldn't take d risk...
mybe im fated not 2 be inlove or get married like other people dreamed....
hmmmm..
i guess this is wat im gonna be..
SINGLE till death...
hahaha..

RM 95K...!!!!

atlast, 4 quite sumtyms i've be waiting...
IT'S MINE already...!!!
haha..
so, i gues i want 2 buy a drift car which is my toyota corolla dx...
ahaha..
and my new D5000 camera..
heee..
plus, i wanna buy mama some baju kurung and wat eva she wants..
heee..
my adik, jeans, baju melayu and wat eva he wants...
hahaha..
gile kaye aku nie...
^_^

mybe balance yg ade kt aku lg 80K...
owh ya, nk beli fon baru coz fon aku nie act fon mama..
hahaha....
then after sume2 aku dh spent,
aku ingat nk cari tmpat kt cherating,
and nk wat photoshoot 4 akma...
i want her 2 be wat she want...
which is model...
hmm..
sum people may said dat im a hypochryte..
haha..
i dun give a damn...!!
coz they dunnoe d real me..
hahaha..

owh, frens...
wait til i call u bout the CHERATING thing...
hahahaha..

yesterday..

yesterday i brought mawar 2 my mom's ofis 4 an interview..
act, dat job is 4 me, but i gave it 2 mawar...
she's seem so nervous...
but she controled it very well..
heee..
she juz need some support 2 make her feel cnfident...
and ya, she got her job..
heee..

after dat interview, we went back 2 kg baru..
kejotkan bear..
and mkn2...
then we went 2 queenspark...
baju kt sane branded2 plus 70% off...
unfortunately, baju gurls je yg byak...
4 those who love MnG, Esprit, Quicksilver and Roxy, u can go there...

yet, it been 9days since akma and i hang 2gether...
i miss her..
i miss her gile2..
haha..

she seem very bz with her hmwk, folio, CHOCOLATE CHIPS, and etc...
i understand..
so i guess i have 2 wait 4 her untill d last day of her spm day...
i've planned 2 bring her and my friends 2 cherating..
it's all ON ME...
haha..
coz i've got my 95K already....
^_^