bye.. )':

its been awhile since all of us being frens...
i really appreciate our friendship...!!

malia : i've neva have such a bestfriend like u.. happy gile dapat bestfriends macam amalia...!! hee..
lpas nie bash dh xde kt casa... hope malia jage diri elok2 k.. if anything happen, bg tau azlan tros k...
bash syg malia tau.... ^_^

kak farie : akak the best kakak i've eva had... sbab bash sulung, xde abg or kakak..
but bash dapat rasakan kasih syg seorg kakak dr akak... syg akak lah..!! hehe... ^_^

michele : kawan pompuan yg paling gile di segi..!! hahaha... ske tgk u laa... u kelakar laa..!! hahaha...
happening all the time [smpai org pown pening tgk u]... syg u jgak...!! hehehe.. ^_^

mel : ko laa first kawan laki yg paling rapat ngan aku kt segi...!! aku nk ko jd diri ko... kalu nk berubah, jgn sebab org len... berubah utk diri ko.... aku syg ko mel...!! and aku nk tgk ko berjaya jgak..!!!! jgn byak ponteng klas...

am : aku nk ko jnji ngan aku boleh am..?? berhenti hsap rkok... sbab aku syg ko, aku xnk ko mati lagi awal dari aku...!! kwan ngan ko n mel best gile doe..!! aku rase happy..!! lpas nie, aku dh xde teman "karok" dh.... heee.. ^_^

syafiq : aku nk minx maaf kt ko kalu kate2 aku ade wat ko terasa... aku xde niat nk wat cm2.....
juz gurau2 jee... aku syg ko jgak..!!! heee....

sab : sory byak2..!! aku mmg ske kacau ko.. xtau knape.. hahaha.... but aku xde niat nk wat ko terasa or ape.... hope ko xterasa ngan aku.. ^_^ aku syg ko jgak..!!!

sandhy : aku suke kwan ngan ko...!! sbab ko jnis yg xamek tau pape... hahahaha..!! best dpat kwan mcm ko..!! hehehe... syg ko lah..!!!

ellis : lupe kan sume ape yg pnah malia ckap kt u k... ^_^ i xnk nnt ruined kn ape yg u ade...
i xnk ruined kn ape yg watkn u happy... plus, i've made my decision... wish u all the best, happiness and enjoy ur life while u can... ^_^ syg u jgak...!!!! ^_^


hope korg xlpe kan aku k... ^_^ sbab aku akan cbe sedaye upaye aku utk tros stay kt segi..!! doakan perjuangan aku..!! hahahaha...

am i inlove...??

there's someone dat inlove with me..
should i accept her love..?

damn..!!
im so confused ryte now..
hmm..
somebody pls give me a plenty of advise..!!!!
aaarrrggghh..!!!

alone..??

every now and then when i watch you...
i wish that i could tell you that i want you..
if i can have the chance to talk with to you..
if i get up the chance to walk with you
then i would stop holding it in..
and never have to go through this again...

baby i was there all alone..
when you'd be doing things i would watch you..
i'd picture you and me all alone..
im wishing you was someone i can talk to..
i gotta get you out of my head..
but baby girl i gotta see you once again..

should i or should'nt i..??

should i turn 2 d old bash again..??
hmmm...
i dunnoe wether i should change 2 d old one....

first day of raya,
i had a fight with mama...
hmmm, i cant live the way i am now...
i try 2 change myself...
but no one love d new me...

hmm, i wanna change, but i dunnoe in wat way i should change...
damn..!!
this year, i dun feel like raya...
i miss my nenek..!!
wish she still alive untill now..
huhuhuhuhuh...
);

damn fucking NIGGER....!!

it was not our fault..!!!
ade ke patut dieorg 2duh kteorg curi duet die...
hahaha..
lawak doe nigger yg stay kt malaysia nie...
hahahahahaha.....

its ok laaa...
we pay back ur damn rm250 even it was not our fault..
but, u will pay us back each one of u guys by ur own head...
i'll slaughter u guys one by one.....!!
juz wait n see....

i should have knock u down b4 diz things happen....
KAZEEM, u will get back wat u've done 2 me and mel.....
u can be happy now..
i dun guve a damn...

bak kate org melayu,
"hero kalah dulu, menang kemudian"
juz wait n see u fucking damn black chocolate NIGGER..!!!!!!!!!!!

had fun..!!!

damn..!!!
i really had fun in segi...!!
hahaha...
have a tons of gud frens here..!!!

eventhough my housemates is damn fcking nigger,
but i dun care bcoz i still have frens 2 enjoy with...!!
^_^

thx guys 4 making me feel happy...
;P

perlu ke aku COUPLE..??

aku rase mcam dh xnk couple lagi owh....

fobia dgn pompuan...!!

but aku rase mcam aku lonely gile coz xde teman yg nk care psal aku....

huhuhu..

sedih nie..

but aku rase mcam happy plus lucky coz ade kwan2...

mel, kak farie, madihah, michelle and malia...

dieorg laa yg wat aku gelak sepanjang aku di hostel segi...

hehehe..

aku rase diri aku bukan bash yg dulu..

im the new person with no problems to solve and worried about....

hahaha...

but dieorg dh start kenekan aku ngan madihah....

hmmm, aku xkesah sgt laa psal 2...

coz, aku tau madihah dh ade bf..

dh 4taun couple doe..

hahahaha...

gurl paling hebat yg penah aku jmpe dlm relationship...

hahahaha...

patut ke aku cari pengganti isha utk membuatkan aku rse lg happy..?

yup, i admit it, it hard 4 me 2 find a replacement 4 her coz i love her with all my heart b4...

but now, i juz being happy seeing her happiness with azym...

it still hurts me but its ok..

i can move on with my life....

and akma..??

she will juz be my craziest girlfriend..!!

hahaha..

but not d most special one...

i love being frens with her...

but, i dun have any feelings 2wards her...

except as a fren...

hmmm...

i can only be happy if i heard my mom say " i love u, abg"..

that is the most precious word dat i've been looking for years...

yet, i still have 2 finish my study...

so dat i can achive all my wishes and be a successful person...

i juz want 2 be a photographer...

so, should i or i shouldn't have a special relationship with gurl..??

^_^

lepak..!!!

ary nie aku lepak lagi ngan kak farie, malia and madihah...

bleh dikatakan kiteorg lpak sesame tiap2 ary laa...

hahahaha....

mel jgn ckap laa, kteorg dh macam partner in everything dh....

hahahaha..

but dun get me wrong, im STRAIGHT ok..!!

hahahahaah....

kteorg buke pose sesama, and gy men badminton...

after dat, aku ajak dieorg lpak mamak..

otw nk gy mamak 2, camera kak farie jatuh and menghempap kakiku..!!

ADUH...!! aku menjerit..

hahahaha..

[drama kejap]

hahahahahaha...

but the camera is still ok...

it juz my right foot fingers feel like broken or crack...

still hurts till now...

hahaha...

but lpak ngan dieorg best gile..!!

ske tgk dieorg gelak2...

hahahaha....

aku pown satu, ske wat lawak bodoh yg amat....

hehehehehehe..

esk plan nk gy d curve ngan dieorg...

but mybe nek cab kott..

hehehe..

aku nie mmg gile sbnarnye...

plan bnda bodoh2 je...

hahahaha..

assignment byak lagi xwat...

hahaha...

nk tau cerita selanjutnya ttg kteorg di d curve,

nantikan kemunculan nya di pawagam yg paling jauh dgn anda...!!

hahahahahahaha....

malam mencari hantu..??

hahaha..

its supose 2 be a creepy nyte 4 all....

heee...

b4 i go to the best part, i'll start my story here..

hehehehe....

once upon a tym....

hahahahaha...

men2 je....

pada ary khamis yg malang,

aku terbuat satu plan gile iaitu membuat misi mencari hantu...

hahahah...

mlm 2 aku lpak umah dak2 gurls..

sblah umah aku je...

hahahaha...

so, aku pkse semua org ikot pgy mencari hantu....

hahahaha..

kirenye aku bertanggung jawab atas semua yg bakal berlaku laa nie...

hehehehehe....

kiteorg kuar umah kol 3am++....

hahahah...

so, dengan cnfident nye aku membawa pajero mel..

hehehe...

otw nk ke bukit tunku,

berlaku laa satu insident yg tak diingini...

jeng, jeng, jengggg...!!!

kiteorg di gangu oleh satu masalah yg besar..

[tym nie baru kt bangsar]

hahahhaaha....

kereta ROSAK...!!!!

DAMN....!!!!

kteorg sangkut kt bangsar smpai kol 5 lbih..

hahahaha...

aku rase bersalah sgt2 mlm 2...

but aku cover dgn menceriakan keadaan...

hahahaha...

tp, sumpah mlm 2 aku ngan mel tensen gile...

huhuhu...

dh ar bwak awek2....

aku ngan mel je yg laki...

yg 6 org lagi sume pompuan....

huhuhhu...

aku kene bertanggung jwab atas sume yg berlaku....

kire if anything happen 2 them, mel n i have 2 protect them no matter wat happen....

hmmm, aku dh bese dh protect2 org nie...

but aku rsau kalu ape2 jadi kt dieorg je.....

at the end,

aku cbe satu konklusi iaitu membuat "jump start"...

hahahah...

cara 2 berkesan...

hahaha....

but azab nk bwak kete 2 sumpah mcm nk mati owh...

hahahahaha....

kete 2 bleh plak mati2 lagi....

and aku pown memberanikan diri utk menjahanamkn kereta 2...

hahahahaha...

and we arrived home safely without any injury happen....

hahahahaha...

PAJERO drift weyh..!!

hahahahaha...

damn crazy laa aku nie...

hehehehe...

P/S : the moral of the story is, mari laa kite beramai2 mencari hantu di bulan puasa....!!

hahahahaha...

SEGi College..!!

my new life, friends and attitude begins here..!
hee..
im d new bash which is still crazy, ugly and still doing stupid things...
hahaha..
but, i reduce all my bad habbit and starting 2 love and think bout myself..!!
4 all dis while, i juz think bout other people around me..
and not thinking bout me..
hahaha....

i've change a lot i think..
hehe..
yaa, i've changed..!
hee..

thx 4 those who being my new frens and help me with my assignment..!!
hehehehe..
we'll do a lot more group discussion afterwards...!!
hahahaa....

still single...

hahaha..
i dun wanna get involve with love anymore...
hahaha..
im suck with it...
heee..

all i want now is faocus on my study and having my good time...
kinda fall inlove with "drawing'' i guess..
hahaha..
addicted 2 it...
heee..

i felt like im flying...!!

hehehe..
i felt like im flying all over the world..!!
hahahaha...
damn..!!
its not dat im taking any drugs, but i juz felt really happy 2day..!!
hahahahaha...

after wat i've done, i think its better 4 me 2 live dis way...
hahahaha..
alone, and always be alone..!!
hahahahaha...

why i still keep thinking and waiting for her..??!!

damn..!! i thought dat i've moved on..!!!
aaarrrrggghh..!!
why i juz cant forget bout her..??!!
its been like 1 month and 2 weeks...!!
damn..!!
i juz cant stop thining bout her everyday..!!!
mybe its bcoz of d picture dat i swore i'll neva take it out from my wallet..!!
damn..!!!!
its hurts a lot..!!

but i need 2 focus on my study no matter wat happen..!!!
i noe i can do it, but i juz need sum spport from family and frens..
why did i love her so much when she juz esily find sum1 else as my replacement...??
damn its hard 4 me 2 find a replacement 4 her...
aarrrrgghh...!!
why is it happening 2 me..??!!
aarrrghh..!!
i shuld let bygone be bygones..!!
its my lifetime principe...

damn, i need more courage 2 move on..!!
even i still love her..
its ok, she's happy now...
dats all i want 4 her....

the most precious day..!!!

today is my memorial day ever...!!
i had a very nice new frens..!!
hehehe..
even yg 2 org tu stay kt hostel, but dieorg kuat tido..!!
hahahahaha..!!
farith and raymond, dh2 ar 2 tdo..!!!
hahahaha..

owh ya, 2day is my induction day...
im having fun even im a lil bit nervous at first...
hehehe..
aku dh ckap, aku nie penyegan...
hahaha...

sumpah seronok weyh ary nie...
i have my time table already..
damn..!!
this first sem i'll be so bz...!
i have 5 subjects 4 my first sem..!!
yg len sume dapat 3 subjects je minimum..!!
aaaarrrggghh..!!

but its ok...
i wanna start my new life..
so, i have 2 focus on my stdy..!!

bash, i noe u can do it..!!
be cnfident and 4get all your past..!!!

atlast, im continuing my studies..!!

hahahahahaha..!!
after wat had happened,
i guess i've bored in relationship and have my guts 2 continue my studies...
hehehehe....
yes, im takig my first diploma which is DIPLOMA in PHOTOGRAPHY...
i'll be a royal photographer after i finished my studies...
yeay..!!
atlast, my dream comes true...!!
hehehee...

its not money dat im looking for....
im looking for satisfaction..!!
hehehe..
captured a moment of truth and lifetime...
its a valuable things 2 do...
hahahaha...

yup, i'll be the new bash which is a student..!!
hahahahah...

today..

today i called AKMA...
hee..
we tlked bout one hour...
damn it make me feel happy...
neva felt it before...
although with anyone..
btw, she asked me 2 come to her house 2nyte...
coz she baked me some chocolat chips...
which is no one knows dat i love chocolate chip ibncluding her...
hehehe...
so i guess, on my way back home after sending bear home,
i'll stop by to her house..
hehehe...
4 d first time dat girl ask me 2 come 2 her house...
hahahaha...
i guess, i got a chance 2 be with her...
hmm...
but im scared 2 fall inlove and have a relationship ryte now..
huhuh...
mybe its because of my previous relationship...
damn, i felt so guilty after wat had happened...
and i dun want it 2 be repeat again...
damn..!!! i suck in relationship..!!
hehehe...
btw, i'll try 2 be responsible 4 wat had happen..
i'll try 2 move on with my new life...
^_^

LOVE

wat is LOVE..??
hmm..
sum people said dat love is blind...
and sum people said dat love is undescriable...
is it true..??

hah..!!
act both are true..
but, d real love need sacrifice 4 d one he/she loved...
in love, there must be trust, care, give n take, and forgiveness...
if we manage to have all dat, dats mean we will have a long serious relationship....

these four things are d most important in love....
we should have all these four things so dat we dun have so much problem in our relation...
i've learned bout love after i deserve wat i've done...
there were so much people dat i've hurts..
maybe dats y i deserve this punishment....

so, 4 those who are inlove...
try 2 have all these 4 things...
dun be like me...
dun hurts other people feelings...

4 me, love is suck...
but when it come 2 d ryte one,
love is fuck..!!
it will always end up by hurting d one dat i love....
so, i dun wanna fall inlove again...
mybe i juz can be SINGLE all the way...
thx 4 those who gave me d love...
i really appreciate it...

alone all the way..??

i guess i'll be alone all the way...
hmmmmmm...
my family and i are breaking apart....
luckily im continuing my studies...
atleast i cant have my job after i get my DIPLOMA in PHOTORGRAPHY....
hahaha..
so, i'll be alone after everyone walked away from me....
hahaha...
its d best for me coz i dun have 2 think bout all the fcking problems dat always be solved by myself...

and akma..??
hmm..
she seems 2 be not interested in me..
so juz beat it...
both of us will still be friends yg "gila2"...
hahaha....

mawar...??
owh, both of us are not seeing each other after she been busy working..
kinda miss her laa....
but i still call her....
hehehe...

isha...??
owh, i've moved on...!!
even i still love her, but im happy for her...
i have 2 let go for wat is not mine....
mybe she found her lucky prince which is her new bf now...
^_^
tke cre girl...

me..??
being such an annoying person coz afraid 2 fall inlove again...
wont bother any of the girls dat interested in me....
coz i will make them walk away....
hahahaha..
being more crazy, pathethic, and sarcastic....
hahahahahahaha...

what i felt ryte now..??

hey guys,
its been a while im not writing...
its bcoz i've my new diary...
hahaha...
soryy....

i juz wanna tell u wat i felt ryte now....
actually, i dunnoe wat i felt...
but obviously i've been thinking a lot bout akma....
i dunnoe why...

hmmm....
firstly, im happy 2 see ISHA happy with her life now..
even its still hurts me 2 see her with sum1 else...
but i noe, her new bf will treat her well...
and i noe she can tke cre of herself well..

and AKMA, she drive me crazy...
everytime i look at her,
i saw myself...
her attitude are juz as same as mine....
our story, our interest, and our mind are mostly d same...
heee..
dats make me fall into her....

BUT, i dunnoe wether she's d one...
im afraid dat LOVE will make me be like my past time...
its hurts...
and im afraid dat i'll hurts her feeling as well...
hmmm...
i noe i shouldn't fall inlove again...
but, she makes me fall again...
i didn't realise it..
wat i felt ryte now is obviously LOVE..

i noe i shouldn't take d risk...
mybe im fated not 2 be inlove or get married like other people dreamed....
hmmmm..
i guess this is wat im gonna be..
SINGLE till death...
hahaha..

RM 95K...!!!!

atlast, 4 quite sumtyms i've be waiting...
IT'S MINE already...!!!
haha..
so, i gues i want 2 buy a drift car which is my toyota corolla dx...
ahaha..
and my new D5000 camera..
heee..
plus, i wanna buy mama some baju kurung and wat eva she wants..
heee..
my adik, jeans, baju melayu and wat eva he wants...
hahaha..
gile kaye aku nie...
^_^

mybe balance yg ade kt aku lg 80K...
owh ya, nk beli fon baru coz fon aku nie act fon mama..
hahaha....
then after sume2 aku dh spent,
aku ingat nk cari tmpat kt cherating,
and nk wat photoshoot 4 akma...
i want her 2 be wat she want...
which is model...
hmm..
sum people may said dat im a hypochryte..
haha..
i dun give a damn...!!
coz they dunnoe d real me..
hahaha..

owh, frens...
wait til i call u bout the CHERATING thing...
hahahaha..

yesterday..

yesterday i brought mawar 2 my mom's ofis 4 an interview..
act, dat job is 4 me, but i gave it 2 mawar...
she's seem so nervous...
but she controled it very well..
heee..
she juz need some support 2 make her feel cnfident...
and ya, she got her job..
heee..

after dat interview, we went back 2 kg baru..
kejotkan bear..
and mkn2...
then we went 2 queenspark...
baju kt sane branded2 plus 70% off...
unfortunately, baju gurls je yg byak...
4 those who love MnG, Esprit, Quicksilver and Roxy, u can go there...

yet, it been 9days since akma and i hang 2gether...
i miss her..
i miss her gile2..
haha..

she seem very bz with her hmwk, folio, CHOCOLATE CHIPS, and etc...
i understand..
so i guess i have 2 wait 4 her untill d last day of her spm day...
i've planned 2 bring her and my friends 2 cherating..
it's all ON ME...
haha..
coz i've got my 95K already....
^_^

am i inlove again..??

yesterday i met AKMA...
we hang 2gether with FARHA, MAS n BEAR..
i felt so happy 2 see her back...
its been sooo loooong dat we've not seing each other..
act i have a crush on her since last year..
but m scared to tell her..
^_^
but yesterday,
she makes my heart beat pump faster and slower at d same tym...
she makes my world quiet and noisy at d same tym....
she makes me feel cold and warm at d same tym..
she makes me forget bout everything...

am i inlove again..??
damn..!!
i hate diz feelings...!!
im afraid dat i'll be hurt again..
should i take d risk or should i let it go...??

sum1, pls tell me wat should i do...
pls...
im confused bout everything ryte now...

i like her so much since d first tym i saw her last year....
but dat tym she belongs to sum1..
but now she single..
and available too...
^_^
should i make my move meaning take d risk 2 fall inlove again,
or i shouldn't...
aaarrrrggghhh...!!
damn, im back 2 d old bash..!!
hahaha....
crazy + being stupid + being nonsense = MUHAMMAD NUR- BASYIR..!!!
hahaha....

why i keep thinking of her...??
i cant even get her out of my mind....
huhuhuu....
mybe its juz me who felt it..
huhu..
am i juz a friend 2 her..??
or a little bit special..?
aarrrggghh..!!
im confused..!!

i juz want to meet her again and tell her wat's in my heart...
hahahaha...
will tell u guys d answer soon...!!!!

heee..
keep waiting ayte...
hahahaha...

SINGLE...!!

d first tym we really met is on d 9th MAY 2009....
i neva be dat happy i mean really hppy..
but d last tym we met is on d 9th JULY 2009..
eventhough its juz 2 months...
but it was my great priceless memories ever dat i had...
thx 2 u coz make me feel hapy all d tym...

im sory i cant give wat u want...
hope dat earing will bring u to our sweet memories..
i juz can give u dat...
i cant give things dat much more expensive...
im sory...

i wish u r d last person dat i ever loved...!!
n its true...
u will b d last person dat i loved in my history...
i wont 4get u...
trust me..
if there's no one would sincerely accept u, u juz can find me as u wish..
i'll wait 4 u...
even it's hurts me 4 wat eva i thought...
bt i dunoe y i still love u...
mybe u dun wanna hve a serious relationship with me already...

hmmm...
nw u can do wat eva u want while u can...
u can also try 2 4get bout me..
i dun mind..
it's u're right..

tke cre love..